It'll be August tomorrow: July will never come back till next year. Time seems to fly past this year. Frankly, I can't remember almost everything that took place during the upper half of the year. As far as I recall, there was much unhappiness and sorrow.
I'm not going to look back anymore. What's over is over. The problem with depressed people is that they persist in looking back. I don't study history anymore; it makes moving forward all the more difficult.
Right now, I'm extremely tempted to be resentful...it's evident that some classes are favoured more than others. But if I allow myself to be like that, I'll end up hateful and warped. So I'm not going to be resentful. I shall just content myself with disliking them. But seriously, I won't have anything to do with them again.
I've taken 3 tests in a day before, so I have nothing to fear. With God, All things are possible. 213 days!
月曜日, 7月 30, 2012
30/7
Truly, God never ends in defeat. I got an A1 for my A.math test!! And it's all because I did my best and God did the rest. Still, I was careless...so I'll have to be more careful in future. But somehow I've regained my pace: I'll show them!!
I'm not going to let someone else upstart me. No matter what happens, I'll do my best. It's the least a student can do, after all. This time I'll make sure to thrash them!! Even with 8 subjects, I will be able to win out against their 7.
All things are possible because I believe. Life is like a wave at times, or perhaps a sine curve. There will be ups and downs, but I always believe that things will turn out right in the end. No, I know that they will. After all, God's the Ruler yet.
212 days
I'm not going to let someone else upstart me. No matter what happens, I'll do my best. It's the least a student can do, after all. This time I'll make sure to thrash them!! Even with 8 subjects, I will be able to win out against their 7.
All things are possible because I believe. Life is like a wave at times, or perhaps a sine curve. There will be ups and downs, but I always believe that things will turn out right in the end. No, I know that they will. After all, God's the Ruler yet.
212 days
日曜日, 7月 29, 2012
28/7
Somehow it seems like I've cut all ties with my classmates from primary school and lower secondary. Not that I'm complaining about it. I've always preferred my piano and computer to people. I see them every single day and I never tire of them! It's different with people at times.
It's a great feeling, to be able to master a piece and play it almost flawlessly. At least I haven't wasted my time. I do wonder...people always say that I'm 'cold' and unemotional, but I know all too well how friendships dissolve and how transient and flimsy they can be.
So it's useless. There are so many things in life that are useless. And yet, I once tried them out. Perhaps it would be right to say that I've learnt my lesson. Hopefully this jaded attitude doesn't wear off; I kind of like it.
I've started learning the first song in the grade 5 pieces book. I believe, with sufficient practice and the determination to succeed, I will get at least 27/30 for it. I seriously aim to finish grade 8 by the end of my JC years.
I will show others that it is possible for someone to take just over 5 years to attain grade 8. One doesn't need to start early to be good. Skill comes from 'talent' and ample practice.
I feel that this autumn's anime season will be great. Robotics; Notes, Tonari no Kaibutsu-kun, Chuunibyou demo koi ga shitai and Little Busters! And maybe more!
210 days
火曜日, 7月 24, 2012
24/7
Coasts, report writing and trigonometry...you CAN'T dampen my spirits no matter what you throw at me! Be it R-formulae or some other thing, I choose to be happy. The joy of the Lord is my strength.
I have like 3 tests tomorrow, but I'm not going to get all pessimistic and sad. I've memorised all the formulae and now I'm revising my geography. It sure is a long chapter, with both soft and hard engineering to learn. But I'll pull through; I KNOW that.
The victory has already been won, so there isn't anything to be afraid of. See how great God is.
I was really frustrated during the last 2 periods of school today, but when I alighted from the bus and beheld the trees on the sidewalk, so tranquil-looking and calm, all the anger dissipated. God is wonderful...He's put so much beauty into this world.
In Christ alone, my hope is found...
I'll do my best and leave the rest to God.
木曜日, 7月 19, 2012
...
I can sympathize with Oshima-san from Tonari no Kaibutsu-kun...I know how it feels when there's no one to 'partner up' with for physical ed. lessons. I don't hate physical ed., but I really, really detest those lessons.
Which reminds me, Tonari no Kaibutsu-kun is getting will be airing in the fall! Somehow it makes me happy. How should I put this...I feel like Mizutani Shizuku at times. I don't really care about class matters or the like, though I don't really study very hard. But I like to read reference books and encyclopedias alone (as in no other human presence beside me).
I'm bored...
But still, thank God for His blessings, because He has brought me through today. 201 days.
月曜日, 7月 16, 2012
16/7
Some people are weird...they are supposed to be Chritians but they say such scary and vulgar things and behave in a really funny way.
I don't profess to be perfect; all humans are imperfect, but at least I don't spew dialect or that F-word...it's not right as a Christian. But then, who am I to judge? Let God to the judging, because He's the Ruler!
I've nothing more to say; 198 days. Thank God!!
I don't profess to be perfect; all humans are imperfect, but at least I don't spew dialect or that F-word...it's not right as a Christian. But then, who am I to judge? Let God to the judging, because He's the Ruler!
I've nothing more to say; 198 days. Thank God!!
日曜日, 7月 15, 2012
15/7
Message today was absolutely wonderful! In Christ, there is nothing to fear. No problem is too big for God; He rules over ALL problems.
There was this song that we sang in church...it sort of touched me. I looked the song up, and I've found that its title is 'Overcome'. It's simple but awesome.
School life is hard and a real chore, but with God we can smile at the storm, no matter what it may be. Jesus died for EVERYONE, and he lives forevermore. That's why I don't have to be afraid of tests and exams and whatnot.
http://girls4godmagazine.com/faith.in.God.jpg
197 days into 2012, I think.
There was this song that we sang in church...it sort of touched me. I looked the song up, and I've found that its title is 'Overcome'. It's simple but awesome.
School life is hard and a real chore, but with God we can smile at the storm, no matter what it may be. Jesus died for EVERYONE, and he lives forevermore. That's why I don't have to be afraid of tests and exams and whatnot.
http://girls4godmagazine.com/faith.in.God.jpg
197 days into 2012, I think.
木曜日, 7月 12, 2012
12/7
I can't comprehend how having a fringe can give others a 'bad impression' of you. 'Mirror foreheads' are such turn-offs. To me, this is the problem of Asian society. They always stress the word 'discipline', with some people giving extra emphasis ie. 'discipline'.
Discipline is not about having extremely neat hairstyles or conforming totally; the thing about asian society is that it encourages conformity, not individuality. Probably that stupid Confucius's fault. What an idiot he was.
There isn't anything wrong with having bangs or a fringe; I simply cannot understand why I have to push all the hair covering my forehead up to one side. Ultimately, it's just all self-righteous talk.
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Anyway, I have started revising for my tests! yay tests! Usually I detest them horribly, but this semester is an exception. I've got something i want to do and I'll work towards it. (too many I's)
And on one Wednesday there's English, A.math and Geography. Talk about the most unholy of combinations. But what's got to be done has to be done. I expected something like that anyway.
Guess I'm starting to get bored.
Discipline is not about having extremely neat hairstyles or conforming totally; the thing about asian society is that it encourages conformity, not individuality. Probably that stupid Confucius's fault. What an idiot he was.
There isn't anything wrong with having bangs or a fringe; I simply cannot understand why I have to push all the hair covering my forehead up to one side. Ultimately, it's just all self-righteous talk.
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Anyway, I have started revising for my tests! yay tests! Usually I detest them horribly, but this semester is an exception. I've got something i want to do and I'll work towards it. (too many I's)
And on one Wednesday there's English, A.math and Geography. Talk about the most unholy of combinations. But what's got to be done has to be done. I expected something like that anyway.
Guess I'm starting to get bored.
火曜日, 7月 10, 2012
10/7
Midweek will arrive tomorrow!! Time passes whether you're caught up in a whirlwind of work or relaxing and frittering your time away.
Sometimes, the journey to the end is terribly drawn-out and tiring, but at the end there's definitely victory. As Christians, we can run the race with certainty that victory is ours. With God, it's righteousness, nor religion.
The test period will commence next week; I'm determined that I will lose to NO ONE. All things are possible...there isn't such thing as no full marks for math or no A1s for language. With God, nothing is impossible.
God bless everyone; 192 days.
Sometimes, the journey to the end is terribly drawn-out and tiring, but at the end there's definitely victory. As Christians, we can run the race with certainty that victory is ours. With God, it's righteousness, nor religion.
The test period will commence next week; I'm determined that I will lose to NO ONE. All things are possible...there isn't such thing as no full marks for math or no A1s for language. With God, nothing is impossible.
God bless everyone; 192 days.
月曜日, 7月 09, 2012
9/7
"And though the wrong seems oft so strong, God is the Ruler yet". --This is my Father's World
Being a student in Singapore is hard...with things like trigonometry in both A.math and E.math, all those chemical formulae for Chemistry, extra lessons and whatnot. Sometimes, everything seems so terrible and hard.
But I'll never forget that this is God's wonderful world. The shining stars, the gentle wind, the mellow sun...God speaks to us in so many things. And so we must never, ever lose heart!
To me, math isn't easy, but the battle is not done. So long as I keep doing my best, God will prove Himself. He's never ever failed me once. We have to endure till Jesus comes. As our faces are different, our needs and problems are different. But all the same we have to endure!!
I pray a little prayer for all the Christians in the world, that we may find joy in the midst of adversity because we know that our God is greater than ALL our problems. I pray that we all endure bravely till the Lord Jesus comes!
191 days into 2012, thank God.
Being a student in Singapore is hard...with things like trigonometry in both A.math and E.math, all those chemical formulae for Chemistry, extra lessons and whatnot. Sometimes, everything seems so terrible and hard.
But I'll never forget that this is God's wonderful world. The shining stars, the gentle wind, the mellow sun...God speaks to us in so many things. And so we must never, ever lose heart!
To me, math isn't easy, but the battle is not done. So long as I keep doing my best, God will prove Himself. He's never ever failed me once. We have to endure till Jesus comes. As our faces are different, our needs and problems are different. But all the same we have to endure!!
I pray a little prayer for all the Christians in the world, that we may find joy in the midst of adversity because we know that our God is greater than ALL our problems. I pray that we all endure bravely till the Lord Jesus comes!
191 days into 2012, thank God.
神様の世界
これは神様の世界。だから，私は決して諦めないだよ！絶対に！本当に，ありがとう，神様！ありがとう！
This is my Father's World (English Hymn)
This is my Father's World (English Hymn)
This is my Father's world,
and to my listening ears
all nature sings, and round me rings
the music of the spheres.
This is my Father's world:
I rest me in the thought
of rocks and trees, of skies and seas;
his hand the wonders wrought.
This is my Father's world,
the birds their carols raise,
the morning light, the lily white,
declare their maker's praise.
This is my Father's world:
he shines in all that's fair;
in the rustling grass I hear him pass;
he speaks to me everywhere.
This is my Father's world.
O let me ne'er forget
that though the wrong seems oft so strong,
God is the ruler yet.
This is my Father's world:
why should my heart be sad?
The Lord is King; let the heavens ring!
God reigns; let the earth be glad!
and to my listening ears
all nature sings, and round me rings
the music of the spheres.
This is my Father's world:
I rest me in the thought
of rocks and trees, of skies and seas;
his hand the wonders wrought.
This is my Father's world,
the birds their carols raise,
the morning light, the lily white,
declare their maker's praise.
This is my Father's world:
he shines in all that's fair;
in the rustling grass I hear him pass;
he speaks to me everywhere.
This is my Father's world.
O let me ne'er forget
that though the wrong seems oft so strong,
God is the ruler yet.
This is my Father's world:
why should my heart be sad?
The Lord is King; let the heavens ring!
God reigns; let the earth be glad!
土曜日, 7月 07, 2012
6/7
'Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened' --- Dr. Seuss
Many a time I've wondered why good times have to end. Why don't the nice things stay constant in life? But now, I won't cry anymore...but I'll smile because they happened. God was gracious enough to let me have those good times, and I'm grateful.
So I'll smile because all those good times took place. With this, I believe I can face the future with unblemished strength. There're always things to look forward to in life. Terrorists and natural disasters exist, but so does mercy and grace.
After all, the fact that we're here means that we have something to strive for. It's different for everyone, but I do believe that we'll find happiness again along the way. ^ ^
火曜日, 7月 03, 2012
3/7
And so it's July...the hottest month of the entire year along with August. There'll definitely be some dog-nights when I'll think about all the slurs I've received in my life and get upset over them one by one. But never mind that.
The thing that has been annoying me for the past 7 months is the harsh fact that everyone seems to be pining their hopes on that class. Candidly speaking, it sickens me. It's always ___ this and ___ that. For goodness sake, I believe that every class has the same ability.
What a sad thing that elitism still exists in this world. To be sure, my world is rather small, but that's the point. It isn't fair that some classes should get 'advantages'. I speak from personal experience, but this year it has grated on my nerves more than ever before.
And that is why I shall endeavour to get that back. Nothing is impossible with God. If you do your best, then He'll definitely do the rest. I don't doubt Him, because He's always proven Himself. That's why, I'm going to commence operation 'C.C'.
Thank God for His blessings.
P.S. summer season for anime has officially started!!
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