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I randomly typed in 'taliban' and clicked search just now, and right now I'm seething with rage. How can those biased, prejudiced, evil people be so blind and ignorant. Forcing women to stay at home and prohibiting them to get an education.

It's so obvious what they're driving at. I hope every member of the taliban dies a horrible death and burns in hell fire for eternity. Their senseless violence has kept girls from getting an education...and worse, they're misusing religion to satisfy their selfish desires.

I curse them; may they suffer in hell forever. I'm sure God sees all their evil deeds. As for those male chauvinistic pigs who insist on their specious superiority, I feel sure that they will too burn in the lake of fire...forever and ever and ever. How nice.

31/7

It'll be August tomorrow: July will never come back till next year. Time seems to fly past this year. Frankly, I can't remember almost everything that took place during the upper half of the year. As far as I recall, there was much unhappiness and sorrow.

I'm not going to look back anymore. What's over is over. The problem with depressed people is that they persist in looking back. I don't study history anymore; it makes moving forward all the more difficult.

Right now, I'm extremely tempted to be resentful...it's evident that some classes are favoured more than others. But if I allow myself to be like that, I'll end up hateful and warped. So I'm not going to be resentful. I shall just content myself with disliking them. But seriously, I won't have anything to do with them again.

I've taken 3 tests in a day before, so I have nothing to fear. With God, All things are possible. 213 days!

30/7

Truly, God never ends in defeat. I got an A1 for my A.math test!! And it's all because I did my best and God did the rest. Still, I was careless...so I'll have to be more careful in future. But somehow I've regained my pace: I'll show them!!

I'm not going to let someone else upstart me. No matter what happens, I'll do my best. It's the least a student can do, after all. This time I'll make sure to thrash them!! Even with 8 subjects, I will be able to win out against their 7.

All things are possible because I believe. Life is like a wave at times, or perhaps a sine curve. There will be ups and downs, but I always believe that things will turn out right in the end. No, I know that they will. After all, God's the Ruler yet.

212 days

28/7

Somehow it seems like I've cut all ties with my classmates from primary school and lower secondary. Not that I'm complaining about it. I've always preferred my piano and computer to people. I see them every single day and I never tire of them! It's different with people at times.

It's a great feeling, to be able to master a piece and play it almost flawlessly. At least I haven't wasted my time. I do wonder...people always say that I'm 'cold' and unemotional, but I know all too well how friendships dissolve and how transient and flimsy they can be.

So it's useless. There are so many things in life that are useless. And yet, I once tried them out. Perhaps it would be right to say that I've learnt my lesson. Hopefully this jaded attitude doesn't wear off; I kind of like it.

I've started learning the first song in the grade 5 pieces book. I believe, with sufficient practice and the determination to succeed, I will get at least 27/30 for it. I seriously aim to finish grade 8 by the end of my JC years.

I will show others that it is possible for someone to take just over 5 years to attain grade 8. One doesn't need to start early to be good. Skill comes from 'talent' and ample practice.

I feel that this autumn's anime season will be great. Robotics; Notes, Tonari no Kaibutsu-kun, Chuunibyou demo koi ga shitai and Little Busters! And maybe more!

210 days

24/7

Coasts, report writing and trigonometry...you CAN'T dampen my spirits no matter what you throw at me! Be it R-formulae or some other thing, I choose to be happy. The joy of the Lord is my strength.

I have like 3 tests tomorrow, but I'm not going to get all pessimistic and sad. I've memorised all the formulae and now I'm revising my geography. It sure is a long chapter, with both soft and hard engineering to learn. But I'll pull through; I KNOW that.

The victory has already been won, so there isn't anything to be afraid of. See how great God is.

I was really frustrated during the last 2 periods of school today, but when I alighted from the bus and beheld the trees on the sidewalk, so tranquil-looking and calm, all the anger dissipated. God is wonderful...He's put so much beauty into this world.

In Christ alone, my hope is found...

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I'll do my best and leave the rest to God.

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I can sympathize with Oshima-san from Tonari no Kaibutsu-kun...I know how it feels when there's no one to 'partner up' with for physical ed. lessons. I don't hate physical ed., but I really, really detest those lessons.

Which reminds me, Tonari no Kaibutsu-kun is getting will be airing in the fall! Somehow it makes me happy. How should I put this...I feel like Mizutani Shizuku at times. I don't really care about class matters or the like, though I don't really study very hard. But I like to read reference books and encyclopedias alone (as in no other human presence beside me).

I'm bored...

But still, thank God for His blessings, because He has brought me through today. 201 days.

16/7

Some people are weird...they are supposed to be Chritians but they say such scary and vulgar things and behave in a really funny way.

I don't profess to be perfect; all humans are imperfect, but at least I don't spew dialect or that F-word...it's not right as a Christian. But then, who am I to judge? Let God to the judging, because He's the Ruler!

I've nothing more to say; 198 days. Thank God!!